When I Was Normal

When I Was Normal  

When I was cisgender

Before I thought of gender categories as an invasion of my body

Rather than an inherent part of it

I went on diets and missed meals

And this was normal

I shaved all the hair on my body but my head

And this was normal

I fried every long hair on my head with tongs to make it straight

And this was normal

I was very careful how the clothes I wore would make me look

I bought only from a certain section from certain shops

And this was normal

I would wear three bras to enlarge my breasts

And this was normal

I took the contraception pill everyday

Extra estrogen pumping in the my veins

And this was normal

I painted and sawed at my nails

And this was normal

I plastered my face with harsh chemicals

And this was normal

 

Now this is a queer, trans* body

I grow all my hair but the hair on my head

And this is not normal

I bind my breast to reduce them

And this is not normal

I do not miss any meals

I do not mind where I get my clothes

I do not take any hormones

I often choose to wear no make up

I do not style my nails

 

And suddenly,

My gender alterations

My gender practices

Are under a microscope

 

They’re extreme

A danger to myself

A danger to society

 

 

 

This body holds shame.

This body is shameful.

This body is in transition.

This body is flawed.

This body is fetishised.

This body is different.

This body is unique.

This body is uncategorized.

This body is unclassified.

This body has sinned.

This body is sinful.

This body is indecent.

This body a ono-conforming,

This body is whorish.

This body is unstable.

This body is stigmitised.

This body is illegitimate

This body is fake.

This body has been suppressed.

This body is hidden.

This body is under attack.

This body is punished.

This body is variant.

This body is scrutinized.

This body is invaded.

This body is rejected.

This body is unnatutal.

This body is offensive.

This body has committed offences.

This body is broken.

This body is altered.

This body is abnormal.

This body is dilliusional.

This body is made up.

This body has survived.

This body is trapped.

This body is existing.

This body is sick.

This body is a freak.

This body is ill.

This body is 3 in4

This body in 1 in 14

This body is criminalized

This body is more likely to be victim of crime

This body is more likely to be arrested

This body is imprisoned

This body is surveyed

This body is under surveillance

This body I modified

This body is mine

This body is everyones

This body is no ones

This body belongs to no one

This body belongs to everyone

 

 

I’m not saying some gender practices are wrong,

And others are right.

But some people are.